Haunting Alien Faces.

Stuck in traffic, waiting for the light to change behind the second (count ’em: second) slow motherfucker I’ve gotten stuck behind on my commute to work today, my eyes catch a parked U-Haul truck a short distance ahead of me and to the left. And on the side of the truck I see one of Their faces.

This happens often. I’m not sure if its because I’m of that artistic mindset that tends to make an everlasting Rorschach test out of the external world as a whole or because I’m simply bat-shit insane, but this happens all the time.

I think I see the face of a Gray alien on someone’s t-shirt and it turns out to be the Punisher logo. I see a Gray alien face in the reflections in the chrome pipes above the urinal every day at work — and I drink java, so I’m there quite often. I see their faces and figures in spills, stains, and shadows, day and night. I meditate in the morning, I see their faces, their eyes, staring back at me too, too close behind my eyes as I strive to maintain focus on the breath.

This time, though, it’s a bit extreme. I can’t un-see it. I keep calling myself crazy, that its not really there, that it makes no sense to be there, but this doesn’t help at all.

Once traffic starts moving, I’m actually thankful for the slow-ass in front of me, and I try to be careful as I go forward so I don’t get too distracted when I take a closer look.

And I look. Closely.

And it is, it actually is a Gray alien displayed on the side of the truck after all. It would appear that I’m no more insane than usual today. Which is nice and all, but why have an alien displayed on the side of a U-Haul? What is the meaning of this?

Better to move your own shit than have aliens abduct them? Return the vehicle in the allotted time or you’ll be caught, probed, prodded, and released?

Desire to move off-planet? Enjoy our new trucks, complete with warp-drive.

The Little Death.

10/99

It was fairly late by the time we got back to her sister’s place, and though I wanted to go home, Anne convinced me to stay. I had no car to drive home with, as she had driven me, and she told me it was too late for driving, anyway. She promised she’d take me back in the morning, and pushed me to call my parents to tell them where I was. I really didn’t want to do so, but I did, just to satisfy her. I ended up waking them up only to tell them what they would’ve assumed anyway: that I wouldn’t be home until probably noon tomorrow.

Anne and I pulled out mattresses from the kid’s room and put them on the floor of the living room for us to sleep on. Her sister, Janice, took the couch by the window, and Shelley went into her room with the creepy green light, along with her friend.

Anne and I lay on the mattress, with her head at my feet, and I looked down at her closed eyes and sighed. There was no way I would be able to get to sleep, thanks to my chronic insomnia. It would be hours if I got so much as a wink at all. My mind couldn’t help but fixate on Shelley and the story her sister had told Anne and I regarding her having dreams about being abducted by aliens, or being freaked out by the face of the standard Gray, or the story Shelly had told me her self about seeing those lights dancing in the night sky outside the balcony where she once lived.

And then there was Anne’s strange, little friend, Ella, who believed she was an alien. Then there was me. Why did Anne tend to attract weirdos like the three of us?

In any case, maybe Anne was right, and there was no way to know for certain whether any of this was real, if the government was covering it up. There seemed to be no sure road to truth, and even if I knew that truth for certain, I couldn’t ignore the fact that she was also correct in declaring that there wasn’t a damn thing I could hope to do about it. The answer, she said, echoing the Dizzy character I’d heard so much about but never met, was to stop thinking and start living, to live in the Here and Now.

”What are you thinking about?” Annie said from the other end of the mattress.

“Nothing,” I told her.

Nothing, nothing. How many times had I myself asked questions like that only to receive the response of “nothing,” knowing full well that it was a blatant fucking lie? How many times had I, myself, given that response, as I had just then, when it was the farthest distance from the truth? How much love, happiness, misery, hate, fantasy and memory, truth and lie, thought and emotion, confusion and enlightenment throughout the course of human history had safely hidden behind the guise of that bloody contradiction of a word, “nothing”?

That’s what she’d been preaching about, though: nothing. No thought. Stop thinking, stop conceptualizing, just sink into feeling, into sensation. And here I was, thinking about thinking about nothing.

I looked back down at her. All the time I’d known her, all that we’d been through, and she was still here with me: just one more relationship that was hard to explain, pin down, or define. One more relationship that, if logic dictates, shouldn’t have lasted. Yet I’d learned long ago that logic isn’t the guiding force in the universe, and if there was any doubt the evidence lay right there at my feet.

“You can come down here and talk,” she said, and so I swung my head to where my feet had been seconds earlier. We both had a cigarette and talked for a long time about things.

As I looked in her eyes, I thought I sensed something — but I told the animalistic fool in me to shut the hell up and to maintain some self control. We put out cigarettes and lay down beside each other, our conversation working it’s way into reminiscing. In the process, we rolled our heads closer to one another, and I was wondering how close I was permitted to get to her. I tried to read her, to ascertain what it was she wanted. In the end I just up and asked if I could kiss her.

“You don’t have to ask,” she said, and I tried to justify my asking, but she cut me off and kissed me instead.

I pulled back after a while and just looked at her and smiled. “Been waiting awhile for this…”

She put her finger to my lips. “Do you always have to talk?”

She didn’t say it in a sweet, sexy voice, either. At least to my ears, it seemed as if she was honestly annoyed. I was a bit confused, because that was one of the things I’d always liked about her: we could hold deep conversations while we were otherwise engaged in doing things to one another. I took the message, though, and I tried to shut my trap.

It was a long time that we played, too, and I got to do the things I hadn’t done in a long time. Then it got more heated. It got more heated than it had ever gotten between her and I, more heated than it had ever gotten between me and anybody. On reflex, I went to say something, but no sooner had I opened my mouth than her finger again went to my lips.

“Just feel. Try to stop thinking and sink into the moment.”

She unzipped my fly and her hand went down. I tried to do as she had instructed, to shut up and stop thinking, and just enjoy it all. I felt a warmth, a comfort, a trust sweep over me that I hadn’t felt since… when had I felt that?

And then I felt something different. Something unprecedented. Something strange, beautiful, wonderful, and ultimately foreign.

“Is this okay?”

The feelings sweeping through me put me in a state of indescribable awe. I shook my head almost violently.

“Yeah,” I said, and took off my clothes.

Any fear regarding what I had just agreed to was annihilated upon my guided entry. I lay back, and she moved atop me like an angel of the god I don’t believe in. It was smooth, warm, and rhythmic.

She was fucking beautiful: adjective. I was fucking beautiful: verb.

It wasn’t long, though, until I knew what I needed. I spoke up and asked her if I might try the top, and when she said okay I apologized like I’d just robbed her of her rightful throne. She insisted it was okay, and seemed to have no aversions. It seemed to be a courageous move on my part, for this was absolutely foreign territory. I tried to go with the flow; grow with the flow. I did the best an amateur can do.

As I was atop her, I closed my eyes. I truly put all my effort into not thinking, just focusing on the feeling. What happened somewhere in the rhythm, somewhere in the electric sweat between her and I, is a kind of thing that had often happened to me: I saw things.

I was soaring above a dark, desert plane at a steady speed, looking down from a bird’s-eye view at the desolate landscape, occasionally spotted with what I assumed might be people far, far below. The vision felt so real, the sense of motion felt so real. It felt as if I was bi-locating, as if I was in two places at once. Looking down upon that dead, desert landscape, I wondered if I had finally lifted from the pessimistic, futile, narcissistic wasteland I’d been stuck in the previous four years. Perhaps what I was seeing was a metaphorical hallucination regarding that.

Had this been all I had really needed — ironically, something I had feared?

“Who are you looking at behind those eyes?”

“No one.”

If I tried to explain what I was seeing in my inner eye, it would just come out total gibberish. Even if I had enough focus to talk in a comprehensible manner, I’d just sound crazy again, and she probably would’ve told me to shut up and sink back into the feeling anyway. Besides, how could I explain how she was obliterating all my preconceived notions regarding sex? That this wasn’t just some primitive, animalistic act? Sure, I knew damned well that it was a primitive ritual carried out by an organism’s most basic impulse — to survive, at least genetically — but I had never believed it when my punk rock friend told me it could also serve as a conduit to a spiritual experience. I never understood Annie when she said that it was her favorite recreational exercise. Yet here I was: I felt the snake rising at the base of my spine and biting my brain, intoxicating me with it’s magickal venom. Every pore of my being was irradiating in this sensual fire.

I had been so wrong. This was nothing like jacking off.

“Focus on me,” she said. I had closed my eyes again, but I opened them now to look down on her beautiful body. I escaped that picture-show behind my eyelids, and gazed upon my amazing companion.

After we went on a while, she grabbed the sides of my body tightly and told me to stop moving in a very sudden, urgent voice. At first, I wasn’t sure what to think. Had I done something wrong? Had I hurt her? Was I such a fuck-up that I’d even fucked up fucking? Fuck.

“You’re about to feel a female orgasm.” I will never forget how she said it. I will always admire how blunt she was. “Don’t move.”

It was the most bizarre thing — the way it felt like waves, like ripples, like I had stuck my soul in an ocean. She had hers and then told me to “finish up.” As I did as she had asked, I closed my eyes again and I saw Picasso-like still-lives in my mind’s eye, of lamps and couches and other such things. The images were wonderful, colorful and vivid. If only I could save these pictures in my head to file, I thought. If only I had paints and brushes and a canvas beside me.

“No thought,” she said, as if she could tell that I was glimpsing something in my inner eye. “Just feel.”

Indeed, I had nearly forgotten to practice the art of no thought, so I ceased to speak. I ceased to think in words, even in pictures. As I sped up my rhythm atop and between her, everything within me rushed to a point of silence, into static, to a blissful blur. It was nothing but pure sensation; pure emotion. When I reached climax, she grabbed my sides.

“Stop.”

As I swelled in her, I felt the most awesome thing in all my life. I had thought my nocturnal habits of taking matters into my own hands had brought me to orgasm, but it was nothing. It was truly a foreign experience until that night. I dispersed into everything. I was pure energy. I permeated the universe; the universe permeated me. I was at peace with everything. I was the universe.

I made noises beyond my control. She made the noises of a pleased, intrigued girl.

She got up and went to the bathroom.

I think I had this look of amazement, of shock, of total confusion stuck on my face. What the hell had just happened? I could, like, have that every day? Is this what normal people experienced on a routine basis — was sex supposed to be like this? Is it this cool because this is the first time I’ve ever experienced it? That I waited two decades? Is it because I’m a quadruple-Scorpio?

She came back, then I went, and upon my return she asked me if I‘d like to smoke. I was out of cigarettes, so she offered me one of her Marlboro lights. I still can’t smoke one of those without reflecting on that evening. We smoked, we talked, and I was numb and wonderful. We drank water amidst the fumes and utterances and pleasant emotions that enveloped us.

She asked me if I’d liked it, and I shook my head in a most certain affirmative. I wasn’t sure if I was sure about anything else as much as I was sure how fucking beautiful that had been and how great I now felt. I’d glimpsed beyond the horizon of the morbid state I’d been stuck in the last four years and had seen what could be. I felt entirely cleansed and energized. I felt as if I had gone into the depths of the dreariest sleep, and had suddenly been awakened — as if I had gone into the deepest pits of hell, and then been given transcendence -‘ as if I’d gone through the bridge of death, crossed it, and came out reborn as something new.

They call sex the little death, and I finally knew why.

“You know,” she said as she exhaled a stream of smoke, with a sly little smile dominating her face, “for a guy who doesn’t believe in god, you sure call out his name a lot.”

Remembering Rosie Finch.

After I awoke, I sat on the toilet and let my mind wander. All I could remember regarding the dream I’d been having just before awakening dealt with walking around with a broom and dustpan, sweeping things up towards the back of some house — and though the house and property seemed vaguely familiar, I can’t quite place it in memory. I also remember walking by a small group of people from work and jokingly patting them on the head as I passed by. In any case, I made it around to the side of the house, where the main entrance was, where I was finally alone and was about to enjoy a cigarette when I awoke.

I checked my phone, which was on my nightstand, and found it was 11:36 AM — six minutes after my alarm should have gone off, but I don’t remember even hearing it. Nor have I been able to retrace the mental steps that brought me from thinking of that dream to thinking about Rosie Finch, but I find it highly unusual that she erupted in my mind, seemingly out of nowhere.

I met her my Freshmen year of high school, just as my life was beginning to take a strange, dark, surreal turn and the stress shot up to unimaginable heights. It was in math class that I first met her, I think. She was a quiet girl in a red flannel sitting at a desk near the window, and I recall exchanging words with her and finding her to be pretty cool.

At first, anyway.

Soon enough, I discovered that I was by no means the only one attracted to her. For Homecoming, a bunch of us met at her house, a group largely composed of guys who wanted her. That’s where she first revealed her awesome capacity to be a raging cunt.

Days prior, I was in study hall when a guy I knew made like he was going throw a wadded up ball of paper at me. I ducked and, like an idiot, slammed my face on my desk and busted one of my front teeth. I had been as self-conscious as hell about it, and it certainly didn’t help when she began laughing at my chipped tooth and referring to me as “chip.” Shortly thereafter, her and another girl named Rosie spent an entire period of art class trying to outdo each other making fun of me — not about the tooth by that time, as I had gotten it fixed, but about damn near everything else, including my new “interest” in aliens and UFOs.

As their insults of me continued to feed off one another, I remember just staring into space, distancing myself from all and everything as I nervously and intensely played with the rubber eraser in my hands (better than a stress ball, as it turns out). They only stopped their verbal assaults, and quite suddenly, when one of them spied my gummy eraser and asked me what I’d made, what that was. I held it up and it looked like a duck, who Channing, a friend of mine, elected to name Belzebub.

I eventually began drawing him, even attempting to make a comic book starring the character. I’d hate to have to credit the Rosies for all that.

A year or two after graduation, we came back into contact with one another. I don’t recall the particulars, but I think she bumped into me at the grocery store I was working at at the time. We hung out once at her place, where she introduced me to iced coffee. However much a coffee addict, I preferred it hot. We hung out again, this time at my parent’s house, in my room, where we made out, I fingered her, and she ended up sucking my dick, if I remember correctly.

It was this particular memory I stopped at and really considered this morning, really trying to examine and feel it out, as I was suddenly feeling quite suspicious of myself. Did that really happen? I’m fairly certain it did.

The last time I saw her was long after graduation when Channing and I were hanging out at a crowded diner in a town nearby where I still lived with my parents. Though she was sitting right beside me, speaking aggressively to whoever it was who was sitting right across from her, she never acknowledged me, nor I her. She had a shaved head and one of those puffy jackets on.

Why was I suddenly thinking of her this morning, however, particularly after that dream? The only thing I can think of is that perhaps it stemmed from that part of the dream where I was patting coworkers on the head. One of them I think was Devin, who I have described to others as a gay man hiding in a glass closet. Everyone can see it, no one is going to judge him for it, so I couldn’t understand why he wouldn’t just come out of the closet, breathe in the fresh air, and just be who he is. What better time in human history to be a homosexual, after all? There will always be total assholes among us, but he would have a welcoming community as well.

I contrast him with another guy I work with named Ronald (not to be confused with Ronnie) who “came out” as gay after a pretty, blond-haired girl at work claimed he said inappropriate things to her in the kitchen. I didn’t see that coming, nor did another gay guy I work with, and he can generally smell his own. For this and other reasons, I’m fairly convinced Ronald is a homophony. Bisexual at the very least.

Ronald and Devin, they’re sort of polar opposites in my mind. Yin and yang.

My greater point is, I think Rosie was a closet lesbian. It was in the 90s that I met her, too, when that sort of thing wasn’t nearly as widely accepted as it is now. There were always stories about her and another girl I went to school with, one of a few that eventually committed suicide. Aside from the manner of her ultimate end, there were other reasons to suspect the girl had a rough life, and I always got the sense that Rosie was considerably damaged as well, and maybe that brought the two of them together for a time. Though I don’t imagine it was all of it, was a lot of it the fact that she was gay and her parents perhaps considered all that a sin? Were they homophobic and, as it was with another kid hiding in a glass closet whom I once knew, did they threaten to kick her out of the house and disown her if she was gay? I’ve often wondered if that is the case with Devin; if that’s maybe why he’s hiding.

I didn’t think to look Rosie up on social media. I have no interest in doing so, really. I do wonder what became of her, though.

Aliens, Doomsday, Zombies, & Why I Like The Walking Dead.

I began watching The Walking Dead (TWD) towards the end of the first season or the dawn of the second, if I remember correctly. Though I may have known about the show beforehand, it didn’t spark my interest, and it wasn’t until a friend strongly recommended that I take a looksie that I paid it any mind at all. I don’t recall who that person was, but I do know why it took such a strong recommendation: I’ve always found the mere thought of zombies as highly improbable and incredibly lame. In fact, I still do.

They aren’t the lamest monsters in the cultural mythos — vampires and mummies push them, at the very least, to second place (and really, aside from their characteristic apparel, how distinct are mummies from zombies, anyway?) — but they are pretty damned lame nonetheless. Granted, my judgement stems from the kind of zombies one finds, for instance, in TWD and Night of the Living Dead, mostly because I don’t have a hard-on for the genre and these are the zombie sources I’m most familiar with. These types of zombies, at the very least, travel in herds, which can be a threat, but they’re generally slow-moving and operate not on intelligence, but base instincts, and so are more easily thwarted than an intelligent creature, even if one gets into a sticky situation.

As I’ve said before, just think of this type of zombie trying to ride a bicycle. If you have vivid enough of an imagination, you’ll soon be giggling like an idiot and see my point. By and large, they aren’t that frightening.

There are, I have since learned, other types of zombies — ones that can run, for instance, or can infect animals other than human beings, some of whom are potentially frightening even if devoid of a zombie virus — so perhaps my judgement of their lameness was premature and based on my lack of a broader, more thorough understanding of just what a zombie constitutes.

In any case, zombies were not what got me interested in TWD and has kept me a steady, unwavering fan all throughout the years, even as twists and turns in the series have apparently alienated others along the way. I like the show because, in my humble opinion, it basically follows a logical process with respect to how shit would go down if such a doomsday scenario — or any number of doomsday scenarios, actually — befell us as a species and civilization.

Initially, after civilization fell or even as the collapse was taking place, there would be isolated individuals and small groups such as families who would be left to fend for themselves in locations such as their homes or, if they were so lucky (as Sasha and Tyreese) in bomb shelters. After they exhausted the resources available at their locations, they might keep their home base while making supply runs to neighboring areas and then moving increasingly further out as food becomes more scarce. Conversely, they may immediately — and in either case, ultimately — become a sort of nomadic tribe moving from area to area, hunting and gathering food and supplies, much like our nomadic, hunting, gathering, and fishing ancestors. Along the way they would likely lose members of their tribe and potentially gain members — lone individuals or small groups of people. In fact, the turnover rate might be mind-blowing.

To pause for a moment, this is another thing I kind of respect about TWD, even if it is a central reason why so many ultimately came to abandon the show, most notably with the introduction of the ever-narcissistic and potentially-psychopathic Negan and his merry band of sycophant Saviors: characters will die, even if you like them. Cases in point: Glenn and Abraham. Other characters survive, even if you initially hate them. Case in point: Gabriel, who failed to close the gate to Alexandria, letting Walkers in, and much later failed to lock the prison door, letting Negan out. The character has come a long way, and I no longer wish to baptize him in a deep fryer, but he seriously has a fucking issue with locking doors that must be addressed.

Characters will also change: there is character growth and decline, and often enough it’s pretty damned difficult to ascertain which it is — whether they are ascending or descending, given their ever-changing circumstances. As Rick (who stands as a prime example himself) said right before they entered Alexandria for the first time, if I remember correctly: “the rules keep changing.” On a level, they most certainly do. With respect to life’s constant flux, at the very least in the post-apocalypse, however, the overarching rule is clear: adapt or perish.

To continue: these tribes will also undoubtedly encounter other such tribes, some of whom are held together by vastly different value systems (Woodbury, Terminus, The Saviors, The Whisperers), in some cases leading to small-scale wars between them. Eventually various groups with resonant ideals and value systems will come together in the attempt to establish stable settlements and communities, much as in the case of the Alexandria Safe Zone, Hilltop, and Oceanside in TWD. Those communities will later come together in order to establish alliances, probably for the purpose of trade and to build up a collective force against the contrary forces represented by other communities and alliances, much as was the case when Alexandria, Hilltop, The Kingdom, and Oceanside ultimately worked together in order to defeat first The Saviors and then The Whisperers.

Simultaneously, there may have been groups that were prepared for such an event, notably those of high status in the former society — the rich, for instance, and those in government — who may have managed to sustain a smaller representation of that former society in isolated locations or underground installations. They may try to guide the re-emergence of human civilization from the ashes, much as The Commonwealth appears to be trying to do in the show so far, providing information on agriculture, building houses, generating electricity, and so on. The Commonwealth, so far as I am familiar with it through the show, seems to resonate quite strongly with how Graham Hancock believes civilization was gifted upon surviving groups of people by some surviving faction of a former civilization after a cataclysm, possibly caused by fragments of a comet, that wiped them out some 12,000 years ago.

And this is kind of where I think TWD television show and its offshoots are aiming to journey and explore, particularly in the interactions between such stable, surviving factions and those who have endured yet managed to survive through the collapse to the point where they can begin to rebuild civilization. As with the Saviors and Whisperers, there will be a clash of value systems and ideals.

Or at least I hope this is where it’s going, as this has been one of my main complaints regarding such stories, too, I might add: there always seems to be an effort on the part of survivors to get things back to the way they used to be, clearly ignoring all the issues inherent in the way things used to be — which is to say, of course, all the issues inherent in the way things currently are. They never seem to consider or deliberately organize a better version of society. They never stop and think, “Our old society led to its inevitable downfall. Now here we are, about to rise from it’s ashes: shouldn’t we be more fixated on not repeating the same mistakes, on trying to make a better world rather than just rehash the inevitably catastrophic pathway provided by the past?”

Yet if we can take a minute to rewind and hone in on TWD solely and specifically, the aching, underlying question has always been: what started the zombie virus? Some naively thought that Fear of the Walking Dead might answer this question or, at the very least, provide some hints, but no: answers were not forthcoming. All this despite Robert Kirkman’s voiced disinterest from the motherfucking get-go in providing data on the origins of the virus. Still, I thought, even if it was not a consideration of his own at the dawn of the comic — and I find it hard to believe that it wasn’t — he certainly must have considered it since.

Kirkman, who wrote the comic and then guided the series, confessed early on (once the comic and the show had gained widespread appeal) that he sold the idea in the form of a comic by telling a lie. The lie was that aliens had released the zombie virus so that it would be easier for them to invade afterward. Finally, after the comic ended, he gave the alleged source of the virus: it was from outer space, but not seeded here by an alien intelligence. Rather, it was a “space spore.”

This might seem anticlimactic, but consider what potential relevance this might have for the Fermi Paradox. There are many hypotheses regarding the origin of life, but one involves what is known as Panspermia. It can be directed or undirected, and what Kirkman suggests is that, at least in the case of the zombie virus, it was undirected. This means that a comet hit a planet harboring life — specifically, the zombie virus — and as a consequence flug material from that planet into space. This material housed life: specifically, the zombie virus. And this material ultimately served as comets that crashed onto other planets, impregnating the native life with the zombie virus.

A dire kind of cosmic spitting and swallowing where one planet’s ejection becomes another’s infection. This could be one of the leading reasons why we haven’t (officially) detected advanced, technologically-quipped, extraterrestrial intelligence.

While Kirkman’s ultimate answer with respect to the source of the Zombie virus captured my interest and spawned considerations, the comic’s inseminating lie has proven to be far more impactful in my case. The bigger question in my mind here, as a consequence, is this: realistically-speaking, would aliens intending to invade earth for the purposes of colonization do something like spread a zombie virus?

Other sources, which I tend to read and watch during my more paranoid moments, when I feel sure the end is nearing, have already largely answered this question. One doomsday video, if I remember correctly, said that if aliens wanted to colonize and rid the earth of humanity or at least reduce our population, releasing a virus first might make the most sense, and I can see the logic. One might wonder why, if they were more intelligent than us and possessed superior technology, they would even be worried about such a resistance, but the answer it quite simple: if their objective is to colonize the planet, they certainly wouldn’t want us trying to defeat them with nuclear weapons, for instance, which would have dire consequences for the cosmic real estate they wished to plant their flag in and designate their own. On the other hand, a lethal virus would be a nice, clean way to eliminate us without such a potentially devastating response.

They could engineer a virus to only infect human beings. If this virus was engineered to kill humans, the vast majority of human beings may die out, leaving behind only a small human population that would have a difficult time putting up a resistance to the colonization of high-tech extraterrestrial intelligence. There’d perhaps be viruses with other consequences that might work just as well and perhaps better, but the zombie scenario doesn’t really seem so out of the question. It may, in fact, be optimal. There may be survivors of any such virus, but there’s an added benefit when it comes to a zombie virus: whereas the zombie virus may have not gotten you, the zombies themselves might, so as a consequence it increases the rate of infection.

That alone would provide a legitimate reason to engineer such a zombie virus. And if it was like the virus in TWD, where everyone is infected but remains asymptomatic unless you’re bitten or die, even better. Over the course of the seasons, we have seen how the Walkers in TWD have decayed. How long could a Walker live, though? They only reproduce by biting, and the human population is both limited and increasingly better at fighting off the zombies. Since all humans are infected, however, once any human dies — through disease, old age, heart attack, whatever — they’ll become a zombie. If nothing else, such a zombie virus would both immediately lesson the human population and leave the remainder a threat to themselves.

Kirkman’s lie could make a good deal of sense.