5/7/21
It was a long week, so I drank and smoked last night upon getting home from work. I crashed and slept in to almost four in the evening today. Sometime between when my alarm went off at 11:30 and when I finally got out of bed, I awoke briefly to read a Facebook message on my phone. I didn’t unlock the phone and open messenger, but just read the message on my screen.
It read, “I miss snuggling.” I don’t think it blatantly said, “I miss snuggling with you,” but that was my immediate impression.
The message was from my friend, Terra.
After I saw it, I lay back down and went back to sleep. At the time, the message made perfect sense, but once I got out of bed, it began bothering me. Terra is certainly snuggle-worthy, but her and I have never really snuggled. So I checked my phone and, of course, there was no such message.
I’ve had these brief false awakenings before, which is to say ones so brief that I never even get out of bed. Once, I rolled over in my bed and saw the naked back of a woman sleeping beside me despite the fact that I’ve slept alone for years. I’ve also woken up to messages on my phone that I later discover I never really received. What interests me most about the messages is that reading is supposed to be difficult in these experiences and yet I notice nothing unusual when reading them.
I also don’t know why I received this particular message on this occasion.
Chronicles of a Madman. 